Well I have some baby news. After my experience at the ER I had called my OBGYN and she calmed me by saying "Please do not give up hope. You will have another ultrasound on the 11th and everything maybe fine. Do not trust the ER and the local hospital ultrasound machine." So me and the man tried to keep our hopes up. I have stayed away from the cigarettes and stopped caffeinated coffee. I have even went so far as to cut out the sugar after the cake nightmare.

It has all paid off. Me and the man went to the appointment yesterday and guess what we saw? A baby! A baby with a heart beat of 120! Oh I can not tell you how it felt to here that little beat of life coming from the ultrasound machine.

The tech said I am only six weeks along, which explains the lack of heartbeat a couple of weeks ago. My extra large uterus had mislead the Doc's to think I was way farther and the baby was not developing. I have an appointment with my OB today and hopefully she will be able to explain the reason for the extra large protruding condo my little tiny baby resides in.

I am happy. Well we are all happy. We had tears of extreme joy yesterday when we realized we did produce life!

Thank you all for being there when I was so sad I could not even stand myself! I can not express how much everyones kind words have meant to me.

So now I can go back to silly. I like silly and have been missing it.