Joshua confided in his father he thinks he likes a girl. He said her face was pretty, her voice is soft and she is kind. Heart melting first love. Funny Joshua are so much alike! The pretty face,soft voice and kindness are exactly what made me fall in love with his dad.
It is odd how far my boy has come in a short time. His Aspergers is something he is learning about and owning not letting it own him. I am watching him blossom into a little man getting comfortable in is own skin.
When I tried to explain Aspergers to him when he was diagnosed in second grade. I was not sure how to put it so I said Aspergers is just something that makes him see things a little different and would make it harder to understand others but it also made him very smart and creative.
He took this little nugget of information to school and the next day stood up in class and announced "I HAVE ASPERGERS!! I AM SMARTER THAN ALL OF YOU!" He was the winner! Bow down dumb asses...
Then reality of his Aspergers started to set in. He could not adapt socially. He was over stimulated and acted out accordingly. He was in trouble to say the least all the time. So frustrating for him, the school and us as his parents.
The end of the last school year he asked his sister if Aspergers was a disease and if it would kill him. She said no and tried to explain it was a syndrome. He said "oh well if the Aspergers doesn't kill me the stress will."
We then enlisted help.
Now with the right IEP in place. A teacher is fully aware of his IEP, an advocate, therapist and school district big wigs my boy is actually having a taste of success and enjoyment of school.
He still has his moment like a sudden outburst of "SHUT UP!" or "BORING", but now he catches himself and issues a quick apology.
HE SAYS HE IS SORRY WITH OUT ME TELLING HIM TO! This is huge! BIG!
Now he is becoming aware of other peoples feelings. It is the biggest accomplish thus far. He use to walk up and no matter what I was busy with or what kind of mood I was in and just start talking about his lego creations. Now he can see me. He can see I am busy and he can read the stress on my face and give me an awkward hug instead of talking.
He has grown leaps and bounds. He is organically just Joshua no meds, just him becoming himself.
I love that boy with all of my heart. He has made me softer and a better mother. Love...