I had a friend tell me yesterday, Christmas isn't about the money and gifts, at least it shouldn't be. I had a bad day yesterday at work. It was a super busy weekend, lines everywhere. I had a few people cuss me out. Because I was closing my line to go to lunch. I think they lost the Christmas spirit and what a disheartening feeling it was. Not only because this woman had harsh words for me, but she also had children with her. She was setting a fine example let me tell you. As soon as I could get free I went in search of my friend John. Immediately he knew something was wrong. I wasn't smiling or joking with him. He asked what was wrong. I almost couldn't talk, the tears were that close to pouring out. I told him I have alot on my mind and rude people yelling at me sure didn't help. He sat down next to me, put his arm around my shoulder and was just being my friend. John has a big heart and if he sees someone is upset or down, it is his mission to lift your spirits.
Once again I have allowed my kindness to be taken advantage of. I won't go into details, I feel I can't anymore on my blog. I don't like this feeling and I don't like being walked on. It gets kind of painful after a while. I am choosing to not say anything, I just let it sit inside of me. I fear I will let it bubble inside until it can stand it no more and comes exploding out. It's happened before. I am quite disappointed that someone so close to me chooses to behave this way. No its not hubby. He is still my guiding light, my comfort zone. He and Kota came into the store yesterday afternoon. What a treat! I was really busy but I still managed to get a hug from my little guy.
Yesterday I told John, I will be glad when Christmas is over. Then I did cry, because I never feel that way. If I am not blogging much, it is only because I have so much on my mind and I don't feel comfortable blogging about it.
But life goes on, Christmas will come. I will be ready and Kota will be happy with what Santa brings him. I will enjoy being with my hubby watching movies, creating new memories. I will try to not let the selfishness of one person bring me down. Just let me have this moment to be sad.