Mary Flemming


Mary Flemming
Milford, DE


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Psych Eval

I finally broke down and went to a psychiatrist. I have been to many therapists over the years but I never felt they were effective. After my latest setback when I seriously considered suicide I contacted a place that does psych evals. The psychiatrist is a man which I wasn't sure was good for me. I tend to not want to talk to men. But he was very good, set me at ease. After he talked to me he said we would have a consultation with the head of the department, another psychiatrist. He was an older man, soft spoken. After talking to both of them and going over what I had discussed with the first psychiatrist, the older one determined I have PTSD. Mainly from my childhood where I suffered prolonged mental abuse and perhaps something else as well. Because I have a lot of nightmares I was prescribed something that stops the nightmares and the adrenaline rush at night. It's actually a high blood pressure medicine. It has helped with the nightmares but I feel groggy all the time! I am still not sleeping well, getting to sleep around 4 in the morning. I go back in January to see the psychiatrist for counseling. I feel comfortable going there so it's a good match for me. On monday I got together with my mother in law and two of her daughters to make cookies. I didn't feel like making cookies but I thought the family time would do me good. I just have so many negative thoughts when I am around people. And I know these thoughts are not the actuallity. I try to stop them but I am not successful at stopping them yet. Any mental illness tends to scare people. They don't really want to talk about it or how I feel. So I pretend. After having a get together like this, it leaves me emotionally drained. Last night I got to sleep around 11 but when I woke up early, i just didn't want to get up. So I dozed off and on until noon. In the good news department I got a "new" car. We had bought our previous car at an auto auction. We paid like $800 for it. Right away we had to replace the radiator. It did not have heat. The heater core was bad and to replace that it costs over $1000. It had many issues! So I researched local car dealers and vehicles they had. Getting approved for a loan would be our stubbling block. But we did! We got a GMC envoy with lots of bells and whistles with our payments less then $200 a month, within our budget! The insurance didn't go up a lot either, still within our budget. I feel much safer driving now and I love SUV's. Today I am just relaxing, crocheting and watching TV. I need downtime after being around people.

posted on Dec 12, 2018 12:02 PM ()


Hopefully you'll get the meds sorted out due to the side effects and the counseling will help you.
comment by stiva on Dec 28, 2018 8:44 AM ()
I really hope so. Especially the not sleeping. But I think the counseling might help with that as well.
reply by elkhound on Jan 4, 2019 10:58 AM ()
I'm glad you're reaching out for help. No shame in that!
comment by jerms on Dec 21, 2018 9:18 AM ()
absolutely! I have done therapy before but I never felt a connection to the therapist. I immediately felt comfortable with this psychiatrist.
reply by elkhound on Jan 4, 2019 10:59 AM ()
It makes me hurt to think how desperate you were. We never know what is going on internally with others, You have reached out and been offered a life line. Clutch it because we love you and so does your family.
comment by elderjane on Dec 13, 2018 4:34 AM ()
Thank you Jeri. Sometimes I just get so tired of feeling this way. I will see the psychiatrist next Wednesday for my counseling. I am looking forward to getting better.
reply by elkhound on Jan 4, 2019 11:00 AM ()
Who prescribed the blood pressure medicine? The psychiatrist or your regular doctor? Talk to them about the side effects.
comment by greatmartin on Dec 12, 2018 5:48 PM ()
The head psychiatrist prescribed it, it's only 1mg. It helps with the nightmares sometimes but other nights its one after the other.
reply by elkhound on Jan 4, 2019 11:01 AM ()
Hopefully a new year will bring a new beginning!
comment by jjoohhnn on Dec 12, 2018 4:16 PM ()
I'm all for that!
reply by elkhound on Jan 4, 2019 11:01 AM ()
Two excellent things, your new doctor and new car. I didn’t know psychiatrists were available for much except to prescribe meds (unless you’re wealthy, or paying cash), so good going. The security of having a reliable car is so wonderful too… I just came back from the repair place and keep rejoicing that my car’s fixed.
comment by drmaus on Dec 12, 2018 2:26 PM ()
Sometimes I really hate cars! LOL But I feel much safer now. This psychiatrist I am going to is covered by my insurance. They are a place to help people of all incomes.
reply by elkhound on Jan 4, 2019 11:03 AM ()
I’m so happy you reached out Mary.
comment by kristilyn3 on Dec 12, 2018 12:08 PM ()
After that last episode where I really wanted to kill myself really scared me, along with my family and friends. I feel more stable now that the holidays are over.
reply by elkhound on Jan 4, 2019 11:04 AM ()

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