Every since Friday when I heard "the news", I haven't fully came back to the optimistic point I was. I have good moments but the thoughts keep coming back about him moving on (in a sense) so quickly and about the finality. I also keep having this feeling of "I want to go home." And for now, there really isn't a home. Hopefully when I move into my mobile home soon, it will soon be a home. But I must admit that I am missing "him". I don't miss the fights, the uncertainty, the feeling alone even when I'm with him. But I do miss him. The grass truly is greener when it's not yours.

Easter was alright. Our dinner was great. The kids got up early and were a bit cranky. I didn't sleep well and had a stomach ache most of the day.

Today has been a busy day but not as busy as I expected. I thought I'd be able to sign the park contract but instead I have an appt. during my lunch hour tomorrow. I thought I'd hear about my closing but I haven't. I did however have to take a trip back to my Mom's for my cell phone I forgot during lunch and I did have a meeting after school and I do have to be back at school in a little more than an hour for the annual Spanish National Honor Society induction. I'm the guest speaker and I just found out today that my Spanish teacher from 20 years ago from high school is going to be there. It is her the Chapter was named after. I wish I was feeling more positive about going. I know this is a special thing to be able to do and experience.

I'll write tonight when I'm home and it's all past me and hopefully be able to say that all went well.