Even though today was a gem of a Sunday, I've been on the verge of tears and a few have fallen through the day. I'll blame it on the cycle of the moon lol. My horoscope says it makes me extra fragile.
I woke at about 9 and made a pot of coffee after walking the dogs in a freezing mix of snow and rain. I was wearing shorts and a sweatshirt btw, as it was in the 60's yesterday (crazy weather). The morning went by quickly. My uncle came and finished up the new skirting on my mobile home, the kids stopped to get some stuff they wanted to have at their dad's house and he lit my pilot while he was here, In between I did dishes and checked e-mails. Before I knew it, it was time to get ready for my trip to the spa.
It was fabulous, especially the massage part. I'm not a big sauna person but I felt I could really use a good cleanse and therefore sweating it out in an aromatherapy sauna while drinking lemon water was in order. Just when I didn't think I could handle the heat anymore, the attendant came to lead me to my Saratoga Springs mineral bath. It was great as well but after about 10 mins. in the bath, a wave of sickness came over me. It could've been all the heat making me feel sick or possibly because I hadn't eaten all day and had drank a bunch of coffee and took all my meds. So I hopped out of the bath, wrapped back up in my sheet and went to the ladies room. I felt better and went back to my room. Instead of getting back in the tub, I wrapped in a dry towel and lay on the massage table. A few minutes later the attendant came back with a hot sheet and cucumbers which she rubbed all over my face (cooling it down felt so good) and then left them on my eyes to wait for the massage therapist. Shortly after, the massage therapist came in and it felt absolutely divine. If you've never been for a massage, I highly recommend that you find a way to treat yourself to this luxury.
The rest of my day consisted of picking up the kids, cleaning in the yard, cooking a pot roast, bringing Riss to spend the night with her cousin, visiting my sis for a few minutes and sitting at the puter.
My heart is feeling heavy and lonely again today. This seems to be a new phase I've hit in my grieving, healing process.