June 4, 2008
Shock-n. an unexpected, sudden upset of mental or emotional balance. shock-v. To cause great surprise, disgust, or outrage...Evolution brought us to the peak of our morality through shock. Shock broug...
Apr 9, 2008
I had long ago forgotten what quiet peace was like. Riddled by voices only I was privy too and the constant noise of others who made no sense to me, I could not rest.***Strange, ho...
Apr 7, 2008
The new outfit I wore felt tainted, or perhaps it was I who did the tainting. The plane attempted to swallow me alive, but Staffer Joe was able to keep my fear at bay long enough for us to be seated. ...
Apr 2, 2008
I stood in the doorway. I always stood in doorways. "Dr. why do you hug Mary like that?"Hmmhmm, "Come in Pecan, Mary we'll talk again tomorrow."Mary's father was overly friendly, and I think the doc w...
Apr 1, 2008
I had seen a patient escape a facility once. They found him at his mothers and brought him back later that same night. I thought, he is my hero. I wished I had such courage.As time passed I often thou...
Mar 27, 2008
At what age does one become able to communicate an ache or pain? Would you feel comfortable in saying that a woman who spoke two languages could adequately report an ailment? There are two woman who s...
Mar 26, 2008
Who is to say how much salt is enough?There are sex, drugs and rock and roll in State Hospitals too. Jax paid twenty bucks for what amounted to three joints. A staff member was selling it to a few ...
Mar 26, 2008
Intention can sometimes be felt, before it can be seen.After lunch was designated as nap time. Most everyone took advantage of this, it was viewed as another hour we could kno...
Mar 25, 2008
On my island of the indulgent mind I lived alone. Total mental displacement and sanity too, were kept at bay by no will of my own. That place, that island where nothing was attainable was hell. I alwa...
Mar 24, 2008
I understand the plight of the insect trapped in the snare of a spider. It isn't their eminent death torturing them but rather the binding of movement.The confusion, the chaos, the noise, it was more ...
Mar 24, 2008
Within every prison, are many smaller prisons. Within those smaller prisons, are the prisons of the mind.Echoes of smell and unforgiving sound bounced through the halls of the ward. I prayed for it to...
Mar 23, 2008
It is so hard being locked away where those in charge can do anything they like to you. If a convicted felon speaks of injustices they will find an ear. If one is mentally ill, all credibility is lost...
Mar 22, 2008
Thorazine is a nasty drug designed to do nothing more than keep its victims in a mental straight jacket. I was not sure where I was going, but I did understand there was not a choice. We arrived at a ...
Mar 22, 2008
While I was a patient of NJ I gained about twenty pounds of fat. The medication that binds us like mummy's wrapped in invisible cloth causes weight gain. That and a lack of physical activity left me h...
Mar 21, 2008
It was just after lunch that I decided to lay down and rest. Ninety mgs of Haldol every day tends to make one sleepy(if not comatose).I usually sleep on my stomach and this day was no different. Witho...
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