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The End


I finally got to visit my sister once she had been moved to Hope Hospice, about a half hour drive from our house. In discussions with Don, the doctors agreed that the aggressive treatment involving a tube down her nose that was making her scream in pain, was not going to gain her very much, so it was removed. (FYI, I had such a tube when I had gall bladder surgery. I was in my 30s and very fit indeed -- it was torture.) Tula calmed down after that and began to rest. Don said the tube made her throat bleed, and he sponged her mouth and throst himself. She did not awaken while I was there and Don said she was sleeping" but I think she was in a coma and I don't think she'll be waking up again.

Ed came into the room with me. In times past, he would wait in the car when I would visit her on previous hospitalizations. But I am grateful he came in. He entered into conversation with Don, whom he has militantly avoided since 2004, to Tula's great sorrow. To recap, this alienation began when Don went ballistic over a letter I wrote that appeared in The News-Press in which I said George W. Bush was a total disaster. I was in New York on a visit to my piano mentor at the time and Ed told me on the phone that my letter had been published. He was proud of my letter. Don screamed at him and said some horrid things -- apparently he pushed a button that triggered a rage so deep in Ed, that it can't be unpushed -- so Ed cut him off totally forever. And ever since then we could not be a family. Don's tirade was insane. At the time I thought he might be losing it. As mentioned, I don't know if he has rethought himself, or just wound himself down because rages don't work.

I don't think this grace period is the end of the alienation. I can't even hope that it might be.

I spoke Greek to Tula, hoping my words would reach her. She often spoke Greek with me when I went to see her, in an effort to maintain the language and because I think it reminded her of the us we used to be.

Don was holding back tears as we started to leave. He lost a favorite sister a year ago, and her husband passed just a month ago. I didn't see him cry then, and I didn't see him cry when he lost brothers (very large family). But this is so very different, isn't it. You lose a beloved spouse, your life changes forever. He hasn't been polemic with me in the last two years and I am grateful for that. I don't know if that is a sea change, or just him controlling himself for the sake of peace.

Ed said he feels sorry for him because, having lost his wife, Margrit, to cancer in 1992, he went through Hell and knows Don is experiencing the same.

Meanwhile, I am dealing with this stone in my stomach. We will go see her today as well, but I will be surprised if she survives another day.

My sister, myself. She won't be hurting any more.

8:47 a.m. Just got the call. She's gone.

xx, Teal

posted on June 18, 2013 5:48 AM ()

Comments:

So very sorry, dear Teal. My heart is with you. Please accept a bouquet of sympathy. Embracing you across the miles....
comment by marta on June 23, 2013 1:27 PM ()
thanks dear marta -- can't get away from loss, can we. (heart) (emotic. not working @#$%$)
reply by tealstar on June 24, 2013 8:54 AM ()
bad news thinking of your loss
comment by kevinshere on June 20, 2013 3:04 AM ()
thanks kevin -- kind words do help.
reply by tealstar on June 24, 2013 8:54 AM ()
comment by jjoohhnn on June 19, 2013 4:36 PM ()
Teal. My heart is with you.
comment by jondude on June 18, 2013 9:13 PM ()
thanks jon -- it never goes away 'though, does it. (heart)
reply by tealstar on June 24, 2013 8:55 AM ()
comment by nittineedles on June 18, 2013 5:58 PM ()
So sorry dear heart. I wish I were there to extend some physical comfort.
comment by elderjane on June 18, 2013 1:36 PM ()
Me too. I bet you give great hugs.
reply by tealstar on June 18, 2013 3:56 PM ()
For the past few years, every time I pick up a used envelope to write my grocery list on the back, I have thought of Tula and how you told us about her doing that. And I know I will continue to think of her every time I do it, as well as of you. Big Hugs.

If I was there, I would go to the store and buy a couple packages of those Milano Wafer Melts and bring them to your house so we could try them.
comment by troutbend on June 18, 2013 12:30 PM ()
thanks dear Laura ... it is so hard to think of her as gone even though I anticipated this day because she was so ill. What will be hard is biking by her house and knowing she is not there.
reply by tealstar on June 18, 2013 1:11 PM ()
Sweetheart, I am thinking about you.
comment by steeve on June 18, 2013 11:17 AM ()
thanks steve ... trying to stay on an even keel. checking on b.i.l. it is what it is. (heart)
reply by tealstar on June 24, 2013 8:57 AM ()
I am so sorry. It is such deep pain to lose a sibling.
comment by drmaus on June 18, 2013 9:49 AM ()
yes, tis and she was my only one, so I feel like half of me is gone, just as if she had been a twin.
reply by tealstar on June 24, 2013 8:58 AM ()
well she is now a peace with herself.Hope that you get the stone there corrected.
Take care and my sympathy.
comment by fredo on June 18, 2013 8:36 AM ()
The "stone" Fredo, is my grief. It centers in my stomach.
reply by tealstar on June 18, 2013 8:57 AM ()

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