Over the last few months I have learned a lot about myself, some of it was actually positive. I have been off from work for the last couple of months, due to a depression disorder. I don't have any idea when I will be going back, they say when I am cured..but that's like being in a tunnel and looking for the light at the end. The sad part that it has affected a lot of the way I conduct my life, my social skills and my creativity just to name a couple. I am trying to resurrect my creativity, if for no other reason then writing always makes me feel better. Writing has been a sanctuary for me, a cheap form of therapy. It has given me a way to cleanse my soul of all that was bad, and sometimes even the good that happened to me. Some days are better then most, today I figure must be somewhat good..I am here and actually writing. The social part was a shocker to me, I found out that for all of my social skills that I am basically disinterested in socializing with people. That I'd rather be alone and not be around crowds of people, so I guess they're saying is that I would make a great hermit. I didn't use to be like this, and I am interested in finding out where the train went off the track..maybe I will and maybe I won't. I think I will try to write more and keep everybody updated on my progress, who knows this might actually help someone to recognize the pitfalls of oncoming depression..and seek out help. Till then take care and have a great day.