I was not happy yesterday. At all. My frustration must have shown through here as everyone was really nice to me. I have also been told that my face shows people exactly how I am feeling. Oopsy. haha

Yesterday while struggling to figure a way out, I thought that maybe the solution was for me to give up the condo and move elsewhere, with R to follow after his barn/land deal go through (he has a very well paying job which he barely makes it by on with his mortgage payment - so he couldn't give it up). I mentioned it to him and was quite put off when he responded that he thought we could make it in a long distance relationship and that he could live at the barn etc. etc. etc. if it would make me happy. In my mind, I read that as him saying "It's fine with me if you go" which I know he wasn't saying but yesterday I was just looking for any solution aside from staying at this job, not necessarily leaving him, and to me he wasn't helping. Turns out I looked at what my budget would be and I wouldn't be any better off financially even in the cheapest place I know, my hometown. Bleh.

So R was awesome last night and tried to remind me of the positives, which I lose sight of from time to time (a lot), and I did feel better. I also applied for about 8 jobs by the end of the evening. A temp agency has already gotten back to me asking me to call them because they can definitely place me. I have to be specific in what I want to them so I don't end up in even worse case scenario, but man do I feel better already knowing that there IS an option out there and I CAN escape here if I need to, which I still feel I need to.

R is home sick today, upset tummy. Poor dude. I hope he enjoys his time in bed with the bubbas and relaxes to the max. I am envious but not about the sick part. haha

Anywho - I think that's all for now.

OH WAIT! This is so funny! This morning my alarm went off and I was dreaming that I had called my friends house and her hubby had answered - so I asked for my friend and her hubby was like "Kristy!" and I was like "oh hi! How are you?" Then I woke up and heard "Yeah hi Kristy how are you?" I was totally confused. Then when she said something back I was like oh - it's the radio show with a caller named Kristy. hahaha But then it went on to say that Kristy is the 3rd likeliest name to sleep with someone on the first date. It was an amusing morning for me...

Happy hump day people...