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Looks Different Than I Remember ...

It's been awhile, yet again. This looks different to me, maybe due to never checking in on an actual computer. I haven't been sleeping well the past few nights, my brain is focused on Roe and such, it disturbs me to think of where the US is headed in terms of Women's freedoms... I have been talking to Ron about moving to New Zealand, or at least having property in a Northern state in case the need to flee arrives. I told him I needed it for my own sanity. It is safe to say that Ron thinks I am a crazy person. Can I really dispute that? ha So tonight at 3:30 am I woke up thinking about a convo this weekend had with another couple we've been friends with for a few years. I had brought up leaving the country for a better future for my kids, and my friends hubby said "Why not stay and fight?" Why not stay and fight. I have come to this conclusion before, most recently when the whole Trump sh!t show was happening. I wanted to stay and fight. But tonight/this morning I am stuck on - fight for what? The right to die by mass shooting? Bankruptcy by way of healthcare? Fight for crazy high necessary medicine pricing? No maternity leave? High maternal death rates? Less pay than the other sex? Is there anywhere better than the US? Dear Lord I would hope so. I do know there are a lot worse. F'in Taliban infuriate me. ALAS As I was laying cozy and warm in my big soft bed safe in my house in a nice area I realized I am safe. I am ok. Why do these thoughts take over my brain? How do you escape your own brain? ok, I am done now. JERI if you read this I tried texting you but the person wrote back that I had the wrong number. haha Please email me your number if you can, I always forget to check here so just in case - Take care peeps. Hope your brains are more at peace that mine this fine morning.

posted on May 10, 2022 2:26 AM ()


I share your feelings and sometimes regret that we left the farm because it was a haven of peace. ditto with the lake house but it seemed right at the time. I would never have dreamed of the damage the pandemic would do to us. I have not seen my daughter for a year although we talk almost daily. She has an autistic child with a heart transplant so she is ultra careful.
My phone is lying here off it's charger so it isn't too reliable but I will email you the number mike and I still email every day and although he has always been an agnostic I subscribe to his thought that we should pray every day because there is nothing we can do other than to stand up for our views and vote. So we are praying for the Ukraine, for world peace, for Africa and it's giant need for water. I really don't believe this is magical thinking,If enough of us do this it just might turn the tide. It at least leaves us with a feeling of peace and the knowledge that we have done the best we can.
comment by elderjane on May 12, 2022 3:49 AM ()
I am actually feeling a lot better since we have “decided” to move to Ithaca. Being surrounded by water will do my soul good, being in a very liberal place will also help my mental state… it will be cold, but it will be worth it.
Now to see if we change our minds… again, like we always seem to do
Oh! I think I have your number correct now, I sent a text, keep me posted!
I am on board with what you and Mike do. It can’t hurt at this point when so many things seem so bleak.
reply by kristilyn3 on May 12, 2022 5:46 AM ()
WSKG Public radio covers that area as well as where I am. I stream it on Alexa from my Tuneln every morning. They get the feed from NPR as well as local coverage. It's one way to get a balanced view of the world.
comment by jjoohhnn on May 11, 2022 8:26 AM ()
reply by kristilyn3 on May 11, 2022 8:45 AM ()
My brain is usually at peace. As a great man once said, "a man's got to know his limitations." I know that there is nothing I can do about anything at 11pm so I let the thoughts float by and go to sleep. With significant practice, it only takes about two minutes now. Don't forget that even tho the mass shootings were Islam in New Zealand, they still had mass shootings. Just because we don't hear about most #### in the news doesn't mean it doesn't happen. Every generation has its issues and your kids will deal with theirs just as the boomeers dealt with our and Gen X or whatever you are dealt with yours.
comment by jjoohhnn on May 10, 2022 6:51 PM ()
I like that you dont let things simmer. Especially in the middle of the night. We are hitting a middle ground now, Ithaca, so we shall see where we land. Ron had a ridiculously good job here tho so I have to hope it’s going to be ok.
reply by kristilyn3 on May 11, 2022 2:14 AM ()

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