It's been awhile, yet again. This looks different to me, maybe due to never checking in on an actual computer. I haven't been sleeping well the past few nights, my brain is focused on Roe and such, it disturbs me to think of where the US is headed in terms of Women's freedoms... I have been talking to Ron about moving to New Zealand, or at least having property in a Northern state in case the need to flee arrives. I told him I needed it for my own sanity. It is safe to say that Ron thinks I am a crazy person. Can I really dispute that? ha So tonight at 3:30 am I woke up thinking about a convo this weekend had with another couple we've been friends with for a few years. I had brought up leaving the country for a better future for my kids, and my friends hubby said "Why not stay and fight?" Why not stay and fight. I have come to this conclusion before, most recently when the whole Trump sh!t show was happening. I wanted to stay and fight. But tonight/this morning I am stuck on - fight for what? The right to die by mass shooting? Bankruptcy by way of healthcare? Fight for crazy high necessary medicine pricing? No maternity leave? High maternal death rates? Less pay than the other sex? Is there anywhere better than the US? Dear Lord I would hope so. I do know there are a lot worse. F'in Taliban infuriate me. ALAS As I was laying cozy and warm in my big soft bed safe in my house in a nice area I realized I am safe. I am ok. Why do these thoughts take over my brain? How do you escape your own brain? ok, I am done now. JERI if you read this I tried texting you but the person wrote back that I had the wrong number. haha Please email me your number if you can, I always forget to check here so just in case - kristilyn3@yahoo.com Take care peeps. Hope your brains are more at peace that mine this fine morning.