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Troubled Mind ...

Today I am feeling blue. I sometimes (many times) wish I didn't have so much empathy in this ridiculously cold world, that would make things truly easier for me to function.

How did this arise? Passing multiple carcasses while driving around today. I don't know why it hits me so hard in the feels but I think about the poor animal not having a clue what is coming and then smash. Probably suffering while other cars drive over until the last welcomed breath arrives. It hurts my soul. Equally if not more heartbreaking is the cows and pigs in transport trucks, heading toward their final horror. Dear gawd what an awful awful fate.

Then sometimes my mind wanders to asylum seekers. How in the heck is ripping families apart justified?? I can't fathom walking endless miles with no food or water hoping and praying to make it to a promised land only to have my kiddos ripped from my hands. How is this ok?

Again, not sure why the gloom and doom in my brain today but it's ever present.

Mary, if you read this, know you aren't alone, ok? I am thinking about you and your situation and my heart hurts for you as well. Ah life, ain't it grand?

I do realize there is ample good out there as well. Sometimes that is hard to see though.

I often wish I had been born as an Indian before the white people trampled their world. It is my understanding that they worked WITH the earth. They thanked their God for any animal they took and they actually really had to work at it, not just hunting with a machine gun from a helicopter or having an animal trapped in a certain area where a human can corner it. I don't know. I am so mad about the world today in *so* many respects.

I am going to visit a friend soon and have some wine with her. *BLISS*. I had a jewelry party at my house for her to showcase her products and in the end I "earned" some free stuff. The irony in that is that I rarely wear jewelry. Some of the people I invited called me out on that as well - "Seriously Kristy, when do you ever wear jewelry?" The answer? Very very rarely.

Ok, ramble over. Thanks for reading and I hope you all have an amazing day.

posted on Feb 26, 2019 9:43 AM ()


Don't worry about the jewelry - you can give it as gifts. The important thing was you got friends together for a few hours, and sometimes it takes something like that as an excuse to put it together.
comment by traveltales on Feb 28, 2019 8:06 PM ()
Kristy, the way I come to terms with it, is to do whatever good that I can do, whatever is loving and kind and try to fight hard for the right
values. We change what we can. I am ashamed that loving animals as I do, I still eat meat and I am proud of y ou for being vegan. Your empathy is a lesson to us all. Love you!!
comment by elderjane on Feb 27, 2019 6:11 AM ()
Thanks kristy, it can be a cold unfeeling world. The rescue group I got stitch from has been rescuing dogs all winter. Those left out in the cold. I have to believe we just don't hear about all the good.
comment by elkhound on Feb 26, 2019 11:50 AM ()
That is good! And I do know there is good. Sometimes the bad comes raining into my brain in droves tho
reply by kristilyn3 on Feb 26, 2019 3:15 PM ()
Damn, your words are trying to make me feel guilty for not internalizing the horrors of the world. But I know that there are some thing in the world that I cannot change. I hope you find a way to come to terms with these feelings. You only live once and you have the right to be happy.
comment by jjoohhnn on Feb 26, 2019 10:44 AM ()
I’m honestly not trying to make anyone feel guilty at all! I actually envy people who can walk around unscathed by the myriad of troubles that surround them.
reply by kristilyn3 on Feb 26, 2019 3:16 PM ()
EDDIE! Where did all my paragraphs go?
comment by kristilyn3 on Feb 26, 2019 9:44 AM ()
I just found this comment. (Thanks to your nudging). Ok. To the issue...I don’t know what is going on with the paragraphs. I see a lot of posts that have no paragraphs. I have never been able to replicate the issue. Try Jerms’ solution.
reply by eddie on Mar 1, 2019 8:01 PM ()
About paragraphs, just go to edit your article. Publish is again and...viola...your paragraph breaks are back! Learned that little tidbit from Laura.
reply by jerms on Feb 28, 2019 5:06 PM ()

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