Today I am feeling blue. I sometimes (many times) wish I didn't have so much empathy in this ridiculously cold world, that would make things truly easier for me to function.

How did this arise? Passing multiple carcasses while driving around today. I don't know why it hits me so hard in the feels but I think about the poor animal not having a clue what is coming and then smash. Probably suffering while other cars drive over until the last welcomed breath arrives. It hurts my soul. Equally if not more heartbreaking is the cows and pigs in transport trucks, heading toward their final horror. Dear gawd what an awful awful fate.

Then sometimes my mind wanders to asylum seekers. How in the heck is ripping families apart justified?? I can't fathom walking endless miles with no food or water hoping and praying to make it to a promised land only to have my kiddos ripped from my hands. How is this ok?

Again, not sure why the gloom and doom in my brain today but it's ever present.

Mary, if you read this, know you aren't alone, ok? I am thinking about you and your situation and my heart hurts for you as well. Ah life, ain't it grand?

I do realize there is ample good out there as well. Sometimes that is hard to see though.

I often wish I had been born as an Indian before the white people trampled their world. It is my understanding that they worked WITH the earth. They thanked their God for any animal they took and they actually really had to work at it, not just hunting with a machine gun from a helicopter or having an animal trapped in a certain area where a human can corner it. I don't know. I am so mad about the world today in *so* many respects.

I am going to visit a friend soon and have some wine with her. *BLISS*. I had a jewelry party at my house for her to showcase her products and in the end I "earned" some free stuff. The irony in that is that I rarely wear jewelry. Some of the people I invited called me out on that as well - "Seriously Kristy, when do you ever wear jewelry?" The answer? Very very rarely.

Ok, ramble over. Thanks for reading and I hope you all have an amazing day.