I had a dream last night about going to visit my Grandmother (who has been gone for about 15 years) and it wasn’t the Grandmother that I really liked, it was the other one, which is strange to begin with because she was never someone I longed to see, kinda dreaded her actually. My other Grandma was awesome though so I dunno why I wasn’t visiting her in my mind.

Anyways, I was on a bus, and right before we were going to be dropped off my purse flew out of the window directly into a sewer drain. I immediately felt lost without my cell phone or any sort of ID or money. Then the bus dropped us off at the wrong terminal (I was with a bunch of childhood friends) so I needed to call people to let them know I was going to miss a flight ect ect ect. But I had no cell phone. No ID. No money. I was lost. It was very strange. It ended up that my childhood friend had a cell phone that my dad had given her in a time of need a long time ago so she gave it to me to get me through. Of course I didn’t know anyone’s number, and somehow the phone was fully charged. Frustrating.

Strange dream. I never did see my grandmother in it.

Yesterday was a bad day. I just don’t know how many more I can stomach here, ya know? I worry about being laid off and I worry about having to stay here – I need to find a happy place.

Next week R and I will be in WI. WAHOO! I am excited to be with family... I hope it helps this constant melancholy attitude that has become me lately. I just hate everything. Aside from R and the boys... but seriously. It’s all so annoying and SO FREAKING pointless!!! I need to find a better way to spend my days. I am at wits end.

Happy Wednesday!