Or is that the other way around? I just know that I've really been to busy to sit around and think and sometimes that is a blessing really.
Last night friends stopped over here at my "place for now". It was nice to have company and just be "me". The kids were happy, visiting with us. Kev was drawing my friend's husband a race car of his favorite Nascar driver. It was so cute. Kev had a glow in his eyes. He really is quite an artist. I fell asleep late last night, just a little anxiety and my mind started thinking without permission again! So I was much more tired this morning but it was a rather nice day at school. While I was there, I felt good and the students paid attention and were well behaved. (Stick that one in my back pocket for when I need it)
During my break I drove around looking at places near where my sister lives. Relatively close but not as close as I would have liked, there were two that I called on. Only one called me back and said she couldn't give me any information because just today she had listed it with a realtor. (Annoying!)
After school was the doctor appt. for Kevin and it couldn't have been less eventful. Kev was not in tantrum mode nor was he ansy. She admitted a lack of faith in the particular school he goes to (I don't share this belief by the way)and noted she'd had several parents whose teachers were pushing the ADD when the children had learning disabilities according to the psychologist once tested. So she had a very nice talk with Kevin and she said that we need to take this slow. I guess I consider myself lucky that my pediatrician isn't a medicine pusher, but I admit to hoping that just for a moment, there was going to be a magic pill. Rissy had dance tonight and Kev and I went and browsed Target. I got him a new "Spring-ish" jacket because annoyingly, his new coat from Christmas already has a faulty zipper and his teacher complains if they can't zip their own zipper. According to Kev, this woman actually has told him and other kids "You need to get a new coat or fix this zipper." I feel bad for the poor kids, 6 or 7 years old, they have no control over getting a new coat.
My husband stopped to see Kevin after work and I cooked leftover chicken and baked mac and cheese. I'm into my laundry routine again. I know some of you may find this hilarious, but laundry is relaxing for me. Like I wasn't at home here until I started doing laundry. I have even been doing Mom's clothes that I find around, left dirty lol. My husband and I both got a bit teary eyed today while he was here. For once we agree! We both just had a difficult, emotional day. We both felt bad. I could have been sucked in, but I wasn't. It was hard to turn the other cheek and keep my mouth shut. All to prevent the sound of tears projecting in my voice or even become a full sob. So I distracted myself. Kev and I had make up work for school. He and I did 3 worksheets and studied his spelling words. He did get distracted for me a bit but in general, he did well. Then I had bought a set of 3 Bible card games at the $ store so first he and I played Memory. (During which Kev told me that if he's real quiet, the cards say their name) Did anyone else hear the Twilight Zone theme song? lol And he did beat my 8 to 1! Then there were really cool Bible Fact cards that he was interested in. We read and talked about the information on the back of the cards about each of the "Bible Heroes". Before we got far it was time to go get Riss from dance. (Side note: Having to travel more and use, therefore buy more gas....bites!) I've doubled what I usually use in a week from the whole back and forth various times a day for different things.
I started worrying about money today, stressing over it. I also started to obsess about finding a place of my own. I think I need a good reminder of "One Day At A Time"...
Today I'm fine and the children seem well. I still have my doggies and the comforts of home. I'm going to find out who Gwen is and what makes her tick! (no idea how, but I'll just Ask, Believe and Receive)!