This post deserves no color. I found out part yesterday and part today (3 different stories by A- I can't even call him my husband) that he met somebody in KY on his business trip last week and they are still in contact.

I wish this didn't hurt but it does. It's not that I want him back because I don't but I am so hurt that he lied rather than tell me the truth when I confronted him about the condoms in his drawer I really did accidentally find yesterday while at the house packing.He's still in contact with this girl he met. I was feeling bad for him because he wasn't ready to let go and I was taking care of our kids and I was working, packing and really enjoying how civil our relationship was becoming. He was on vacation, drinking, meeting a girl, living the life.

Like someone on here said, I allowed myself to get into a false sense of security and now I'm vulnerable and hurt again. I'm sure this makes sense to some other people that have been in the same position. I guess I didn't expect him to move on so quickly and he had said we would tell eachother before it came to that point of seeing other people.

So all day my mom, bf and Sis have told me "Don't let it get you down. It's reality. He's a man. This is what you wanted. Pull it together. This is the reaction he wants from you." I'm probably forgetting more of the well meant statements that left me still feeling like I wanted to sleep for a month. Only that's not a good idea because I woke up crying this mornng and after a nap, because all I dreamt about was the reality. Dreams are supposed to be an escape.