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Life & Events > Relationships > No More Reason to Feel Guilty
 

No More Reason to Feel Guilty

This post deserves no color. I found out part yesterday and part today (3 different stories by A- I can't even call him my husband) that he met somebody in KY on his business trip last week and they are still in contact.

I wish this didn't hurt but it does. It's not that I want him back because I don't but I am so hurt that he lied rather than tell me the truth when I confronted him about the condoms in his drawer I really did accidentally find yesterday while at the house packing.He's still in contact with this girl he met. I was feeling bad for him because he wasn't ready to let go and I was taking care of our kids and I was working, packing and really enjoying how civil our relationship was becoming. He was on vacation, drinking, meeting a girl, living the life.

Like someone on here said, I allowed myself to get into a false sense of security and now I'm vulnerable and hurt again. I'm sure this makes sense to some other people that have been in the same position. I guess I didn't expect him to move on so quickly and he had said we would tell eachother before it came to that point of seeing other people.

So all day my mom, bf and Sis have told me "Don't let it get you down. It's reality. He's a man. This is what you wanted. Pull it together. This is the reaction he wants from you." I'm probably forgetting more of the well meant statements that left me still feeling like I wanted to sleep for a month. Only that's not a good idea because I woke up crying this mornng and after a nap, because all I dreamt about was the reality. Dreams are supposed to be an escape.

posted on Mar 21, 2008 6:17 PM ()

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WowI remembered you were having problems back on Bugster but I didn't know you had it this bad. Lean on your buddies here and your friends outside cyberspace.
Your buddy Draco...formerly known as Dragonswill.
comment by draco on Mar 27, 2008 11:35 AM ()
It is easier said than done about not letting it bother you. It is hard to control your feelings because they are what your feeling. We are there for you! *HUH*
AJ
comment by lunarhunk on Mar 24, 2008 6:29 PM ()
Regardless of how it ends it is painful. I'm so sorry for your pain!
comment by frogfenatic on Mar 22, 2008 11:46 PM ()
Parting is such sweet sorrow--you are mourning a failed relationship and that is normal. It just takes time. My first husband was a cruel man who died a horrible death--cancer, but I stilled mourned. Change is not easy for me, nor will this change be easy for you. We mourn those good memories. Now you will make new and better ones.
comment by angiedw on Mar 22, 2008 3:45 AM ()
Here's my thought, I felt that too but realize it was really all my own sense of guilt at saying goodbye. Trust me, you care less than you think you do. You just care at this moment. You'll feel better when you can just let go.Thinking of you.
comment by teacherwoman on Mar 21, 2008 10:01 PM ()
I honestly have no words... I'm so sorry!
comment by greeneyedgemini on Mar 21, 2008 9:04 PM ()
My attempt at a level thought.....How does one tell another something like that? If you still care about their feelings at all to tell a lie would seem quite appealing.
Embrace your pain over what you lost......pain means you once felt something special and that makes life worth while.
comment by pecan on Mar 21, 2008 6:47 PM ()

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