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Huge Step

Today marks only a week since I made the decision to leave and as you all know, this wasn't a rash decision. Nor was it a decision that I felt I would change my mind on. I knew that if I changed my mind and went back it would be for all the wrong reasons. The same ones I went back for last time (finances, feeling bad for the kids and my husband, fear).

So today after I did all of my regular Mom duties and errands, I got a call from my grandparents. They are going to hold the mortgage on the mobile home I found that I wanted. Once again, they came through for me. They always have and I wish they didn't have to, but I'm very appreciative for them. So today is the day, I put a down payment on my very own home.

Another huge step towards the ending of a 21 year old relationship. There is sadness and there is excitement of possibility as well. I believe I'm doing the right thing. I really hope I'm right. I feel like my words here are so simple that one could think I'm feeling no pain, but I am. I guess I'm just running on auto pilot right now, almost numb. So in just about 10 days I will own my own home. The first home I've ever lived in without a parent or my husband. It's all so much to digest.

posted on Mar 15, 2008 2:22 PM ()


You'll be fine.. and congratulations on the decision. I'm sure it wasn't made hastily or without lots of thought. Been there myself and when you know in your heart it's right... it's right. Good luck.
comment by artisticgypsy on Mar 20, 2008 6:20 AM ()
I believe you made the right decision. Congratulations on your new home! Good for you!!!
comment by hopefields on Mar 16, 2008 10:41 PM ()
I am so freakin' proud of you, Gwen. You have no idea how you inspire me.
comment by janetk on Mar 16, 2008 1:31 PM ()
Hang in there, sweetie. I believe you're doing exactly the right thing!
comment by teacherwoman on Mar 15, 2008 8:57 PM ()
How exciting!
comment by lunarhunk on Mar 15, 2008 7:28 PM ()
that is good news about the new home. and it is a major step, in the right direction I think. gwen, all I wish you is complete healing and happiness.
comment by elkhound on Mar 15, 2008 5:48 PM ()
One other thing, speaking from experience, it takes more out of you to do nothing than it does to make the decision to do something, like leaving. Once the decision is made, 85% of the work is done. Stick to what you know and don't falter. You know what you know and that is all you need to know. Follow what you know and believe in yourself the way we believe in you.
comment by whereabouts on Mar 15, 2008 5:05 PM ()
Awwww.... I got the chills when I read that your Grandparents are going to hold the mtg for you.

Your Angels are really "Earth Angels", you know.
comment by whereabouts on Mar 15, 2008 5:01 PM ()
Just hang in there Gwen. I knew things would fall into place at the right time. It will all work out.
comment by texastar on Mar 15, 2008 4:58 PM ()
wow! What a step indeed! I bet you will love having your own place - and for the first time!!!!
Hang in there chicka - you are doing just fine.
comment by kristilyn3 on Mar 15, 2008 3:27 PM ()
I am very proud of you Gwen! I too understand your feelings about being scared, yet excited as well - I felt the exact same things! I have missed you and I am glad I found all of you over here - Blogster just wasn't the same! *Hugs*
comment by greeneyedgemini on Mar 15, 2008 3:09 PM ()
It is frightening. I know. I've been there, but I believe you are doing what is best for you; and in the long run, your children. As you said, it is also exciting. I'll be praying for you.
comment by redimpala on Mar 15, 2008 2:45 PM ()
Stay focused and aim for the future
comment by lynnie on Mar 15, 2008 2:42 PM ()

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