It's been two days since I've written and in many ways it seems like longer. Today was a tough one for me. Under an umbrella of humidity and heat up to 96 by this afternoon, I really got myself in a funk. I had some help along with this funk to and his name is "Ex". Unfortunately his was aided by our son who in turn made me so upset. In retrospect, I guess I may have over-reacted. It has been pretty smooth sailing for me lately and I need to anticipate these bumps in the road.

I got a call from ex while I was at the grocery store on my lunch break. He tells me our son didn't go to school today and I ask wy. He says that it was because he had a belly ache this morning and was upset. Ex tells me he doesn't know what he was upset about but when my son got on the phone and I asked him, he eventually told me. And I was soooo upset that my son would try to play these kind of games that he was playing. He was not upset and did not have a belly ache when I brought him to ex this morning. Then my son gets on the phone and says he was upset because "G was telling him what to do and stuff...like to do his homework". I was livid. This is complete baloney and just the kind of games kids play on parents to get their way (ie: to stay home from school). This led to me having to hash our whole situation out again with the ex. It's getting so I really can't talk to him anymore. It's really getting to the point where I no longer want to be his friend. He makes me unhappy and who needs friends like that?

In addition, I'm really starting to worry about not having a teaching position next year. I've tried not to get nervous but I'm positive I should've heard something by now and I can't get anyone to return my calls or emails about the job.

Well I want to tell about my weekend, the happy times. But unfortunately I'm so tired from the heat and stress.

G heard me cry for the first time since we've been together today and then he showed up unexpectedly with ring pops for the kids and a single, white rose for me. I was very surprisd and it did make me feel better, at least for tonight.