Since my friend performed the house cleansing on Wednesday I have noticed significant changes. When I go to bed I always read for a while before turning out the light. I would think I was so tired that I would drop off soon. That is the time my mind would start up. And the people on my mind the most was my stepson and his wife. I would worry about the rift between us, wondering if I was the asshole they believe I am. I would try to think of ways to fix the situation without compromising my principles. I would imagine all the hateful things they think of me.
Since the cleansing, I am dropping off to sleep normally with no worrying or mind racing. I am not concerned about my stepson and his wife at all. I realize that what they have done is wrong and the way I was treated was very disrespectful. I don't think of them at all while drifting off to sleep. I don't have to do my visualization to fall asleep. I would visualize a group of wolves surrounding me in a snow covered forest, offering protection and peace. In my mind they were all white wolves. I believe I pictured so much white as to me that color is a symbol of peace and also protection.
Hubby said he has been sleeping better and is able to wake up as soon as his alarm goes off. He says he feels it is more calm in the house rather than in turmoil. Dakota is also sleeping better.
I also had some very good news yesterday. I don't know if you all remember when we lost our house 3 years ago. It ended up being sold at a sheriff's sale. Back in July I was contacted by a company who found money for us. It turns out our house sold for more than I owed and the State was holding our money for the difference. It isn't a huge amount but it would sure help us out. We started the processing back in August and a few weeks ago I called the company because I felt they were dragging their feet on my claim because it is not a large amount. Yesterday I received word that our claim has gone through the court and we should be getting the money very soon. Hubby and I have already decided that part of the money will go to getting a new TV, as ours is limping on its last leg. The rest of the money will go to stocking the freezer and pantry with food.
No matter what you believe, I do believe the books I received from my daughter in law were tainted and causing disturbances in our house. I will not return the books to her because they have a one year old daughter and I do not want anything happening to that little girl. She may not know I am her grandmother and her parents are assholes, but I wish no ill will on any of them.
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