Today I asked my ex if he would be comfortable in letting me introduce my new friend to the kids. He once again exceeded my hopes in how he responded. He teared up but said he just wanted me to be happy and that he trusts my judgement and is comfortable with the kids meeting G. I was really impressed. I give him so much credit and I really don't think I could have handled it as well as he did if I had been the first one put in that situation. We had discussed ahead of time that we would talk to eachother when the time came that we considered introducing the kids to someone.

I honestly never thought I would want to so soon, but it all just seems so natural. My daughter and his son are in the same class at school. They both play flute. Our daughters are both sassy, little tomboys who like to teach the boys what girls are made of. We all just want to try to build a friendship together. I'm not being overly optimistic nor overly pessimistic. I know that most likely there will be an adjustment period and their may be some ups and downs as the children get to know eachother and us.

I'm looking forward to it though. I love kids. I love family. I always wanted someone in my life that would do things with me as a family and really enjoy our kids. I want us to be able to play with them at times too. I want to laugh together, try new things together and just be together.

We're planning a trip to the park next time we get a nice afternoon. I think that is just perfect. It's always been one of my most favorite places to go with the kids.

When the kids were younger, I used to pack us little lunches. Sometimes I'd push one or both kids in the stroller all the way to the park (a walk that took me 1.5 hours total between to and from). I went to their soccer games at the park. I've brought our bikes to the park. I've played tennis with my daughter at the park. I've played basketball (HORSE) with the kids at the park.

All of those things we did as the three of us- the kids and I. I always dreamed of having a partner, friend, lover, father to share these moments with.