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The Real Truth

I am feeling sad today. About several things but I dont' wish to talk about it now. I feel myself closing down to my friends. I am pretending I am fine, my world is great. And for the most part that is true. but there is this kernal inside of me, sadness. wondering, rethinking over and over and over. putting myself down, making myself feel worse about me. I know it isn't true but I can't stop those voices. I am tired, weary, exhausted. I need all of my energy to function. I am going to take a nap because my mind doesn't shut down even at night. And I really don't care what chores need to be done and hubby doesn't either. I want to hide from the world, forget about everything. I will lose myself in a book, its the only time I stop thinking, stop hearing the voices. their not real voices, its just my mind telling me different things about myself. I'll turn the phone off but keep the cordless next to me. I don't want to cry. I don't want to feel this way either. would it be better to not feel?

posted on Apr 3, 2008 7:59 AM ()

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I know how you feel, and so do all of your friends! We've all been there and it's not a fun place. Hope you're better really soon.
comment by sunlight on Apr 4, 2008 1:31 AM ()
I hope you feel better soon Mary. You are in my thoughts.
comment by hopefields on Apr 3, 2008 10:32 PM ()
I hate days like this Mary ((Hugs))
comment by gwensgifts on Apr 3, 2008 6:26 PM ()
(((HUGS)))
comment by marta on Apr 3, 2008 6:08 PM ()
Never better not to feel, although you know that I can relate to that emotion, too. Remember my dream dementor, Mary? Sometimes these things just need to come out of us so that they can be released and let go and we can move on. For what it's worth...I'm sure thinking of you.
comment by janetk on Apr 3, 2008 5:15 PM ()
Wish I could send you some of my 'sunshine'--it is a 24/7 job keeping positive but I have discovered a lot easier than being negative so I keep on working at it--and, yes, I escape into reading, seeing plays, movies, etc., all as a distraction until I am feeling better again.
comment by greatmartin on Apr 3, 2008 3:34 PM ()
I hope you feel better soon.
AJ
comment by lunarhunk on Apr 3, 2008 2:06 PM ()
Mary, as I mentioned to you yesterday I think it was, you are 'on a diet'
and having to go without certain foods that are 'bad' for you at present . . . the receptors inside your head, are beginning to shout to you in the only way 'they' know how, to attempt to stop trying to do what
'YOU' want to do; this is merely their way of getting to you. Have a rest, by all means - but while resting - 'think' your way 'tougher mentally' - it will eventually make you 'phyically' tougher. C'mon Mary, you have plenty of good mates egging you on to your goals!
comment by augusta on Apr 3, 2008 1:35 PM ()
We have much in common today.
comment by jondude on Apr 3, 2008 9:56 AM ()
comment by jennywren on Apr 3, 2008 9:27 AM ()
Not sure what do say about this.Talking to hubby help any?
comment by fredo on Apr 3, 2008 9:12 AM ()
There are times I want to shut my brain off as well...
I hope your book helps!
comment by kristilyn3 on Apr 3, 2008 8:53 AM ()
comment by mellowdee on Apr 3, 2008 8:38 AM ()

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