So I took my little nap and I had a dream. It kind of put things in perspective for me. Here is the dream:

Me and kota had gone shopping to this big warehouse place. I bought a huge bag of dog food, cat food and other items that I don't remember now. The whole time I was shopping, kota was running around befriending all the employees. There was even one guy who came and helped me shop because kota had befriended him. Ok, so we run into my daughter while shopping. We are leaving the store with my daughter and my car has a flat tire. So we get in daughters car with her. I ask her if she can take us home. She says no because she had other plans. I looked at her funny and said, well I guess me and kota can walk home. (we are about 20 miles from home). she looks at me and says happily, are you sure? So we get out of her car and I am steaming mad that daughter would not take us home. Plus I have to carry the big bags of animal food! We find a shopping center and I asked this one store if I can use their phone to call a taxi. And thats where the dream ended.

Now first of all, daughter would never in a million years do that. She would do anything in her power to get me and her little brother home safely. So I think the dream was telling me, I really do have alot to be thankful for. I do have people in my life that I can count on when the chips are down. In fact, I talked to two of those people on the phone this morning. I just feel bad that I didn't let her know I was feeling down. No, brave me has to pretend that I am ok and not let anyone know I am having a bad day. more like stupid me!

Its good to laugh at yourself when you know you are being stupid. I was feeling like the world was so bleak and that I was to blame for everything. And then my dream reminded me there are people out there who care about me.