The library is a wonderful resource. I have all the Ann
Tyler books that I haven't read and the new Believing the
Lie by Elizabeth George. Living in a fantasy world is better
than the grim reality my life has become. I hope my eyes
hold out.
I am so ashamed but I had to skip to the end when I was about
3/4 through Believing the Lie. It was over 500 pages and I
had a need to know. She is such a good writer that I always
go back and read the rest after I know how it comes out.
I have finally faced up to the fact that Ted is not going
to get better. Bobby is pushing himself and working every
day. He is anemic and not getting enough protein. I am
hoping against hope that he will be able to tolerate the
chemo. I have no control over any of this but then it is
hard to choose to be happy under the circumstances.