I have yet to finish the final edit on my newsletter, I still need to dye my hair and finish packing; so much to do- so little time!

I so look forward to this cruise. I tried on my formal- the beautiful one that I made myself. Alas, I gained so much weight this year that it no longer fits. This year was rough on me. I think I was eating as if food could fill a void in my life. Nothing will fill the hole that Tod left behind. Sad, isn't it? I am off on an adventure and genuinely excited about it, but that gaping hole leers at me, reminding me that I am not the same person who booked this cruise to begin with. That hit home when I tried on my dress and I realized why I was so much bigger than six months ago.
I will enjoy this cruise despite my loss. I am affirming Life. I choose to live, and I will define my life and not let the events within it define me. I am off on an adventure. Catch ya'll next week!