I am down in the dumps lately.

Still frustrated. Frustrated with soooo many things. Some I have control over, others I do not.

Last night I cried myself to sleep after talking to R about things on my mind - work related and how I hate everything. He certainly tried to help and offered suggestions but I came away knowing that I complain too much and that I shouldn’t take my frustrations out on others. It made me feel worse about everything knowing that *I* need work in so many areas of my life. This I can change though, once a positive thought crosses my brain again.

This morning I cried after reading about the Hormel pigs. The people who “process” them at their final stage of "life" are being brought up on charges after video’s proved they were beating and raping pigs with objects before their final horror. Yes it’s good that these asshats are being brought up on charges, but at the same time this is just one instance of things that happen daily across this planet to animals who are at our mercy. It truly sickens me and makes me feel helpless.

This world is too much for me sometimes. I want to crawl into bed and dream of a land where things are just and fair and animals and people are treated fairly and with respect. It certainly isn’t on this planet.

I can’t think about this anymore or I will start bawling again and work isn’t the place for that. Nope. I’ll wait til I get home.