Sooooo

My plight. Hating work. Wanting to help animals in a hands on way. Everyone here has been sooo supportive and I appreciate each and every one of you who have been, really and truly.

I am stuck though at the moment. I know it's not forever but it's REALLY hard to be stuck. I can't move to a cheaper area unless I want to lose money due to this housing market. I can't leave my job because I have too much debt right now (I am working on it but it's going to take forever to repay all my past mistakes). I have tried to figure out ways to make it work financially while I am in this area and it's just not working out, unless I literally work at least 16 hours every day, in which case I would be miserable as well. *Sigh*

I never heard anything from the semi local farm sanctuary... I sent a letter, emailed, called, no response. Perhaps they ARE that busy? I also asked about donating for their yard sale. They never got back to me. I don't know what to think!!!

Today I emailed a local animal shelter and offered up my time. Not that I have a lot, but gawd I am grasping at threads it seems while I am stuck in admin hell, so maybe if that pans out I will feel better? I do not know.

What I do know is that this job is a waste of my time. I want to be HANDS ON helping animals have a better life. I want to be HANDS ON in a doggie day care if that pans out. I would LOVE to be hands on saving farm animals or fighting for their rights. Bottom line, I want to do something involving animals and this admin job of doing nothing I see as important just isn't cutting it. Financially, it's da bomb. Emotionally it's the pits. Right now I hafta focus on financial though, which sucks the life out of me, but it's what I have to do. Maybe when I am 90 and out of debt I can pursue my dreams. Wait! I can't think that way or I will go insane. Therefore, maybe by the time I am 37, 4 years from now, I will be in a position to do what I want to do. Can I wait that long??? Gawd I hope so.