We have 3 new fish now! Two beautiful Betas brought by G and Kev got a new goldfish today. Pauly (my small pug) hasn't acted right since last night, but he's eating and everything. It could just be the heat and humidity maybe.

Tomorrow the construction will begin tomorrow morning hopefully! If we're lucky, it may be done (except for painting) by the weekend!

I tried to get Kev back to Tae Kwon Do today and the center even called for him. First he says he was scared to go back (due to lots of circumstances which has made a long gap since he's went). I talked to him about that, but then he said his back hurts. I know it was an excuse. I wish I could get him to go back.

Today I had a conversation with my sister that started with me talking about the situation with my mom yesterday. I guess she tries to show me how it's "how I say things" not "what I say" that offends mom and even her. My sister just explained that she has learned that it is who I am and it's not worth it to mention it to me because that would mean her and I not talking for a few days. I guess I can see her point with some things I do and say, but I just feel that every time I act in this way I am "reacting" to something I "feel". I feel like I do a lot to try to improve myself and I realize I'm not perfect. I just wish that my mom could work on herself too, but I know that I can only change myself and how I "react" to situations. I know that I need to figure out coping mechanisms o try when I'm feeling hurt or put down, because these are the times I lose control. I know that I spend way too much time in a physical state of "fight or flee" and my blood pressure shows it. It obviously comes from my past but it's up to me to figure out how to not keep it for the future.


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