It's been a long day. Well technically yesterday was a long day since it's now almost 1 a.m. The weather was sunny and warm today. I wasn't very patient at school today. Come to think about it, the word PATIENCE keeps coming to my mind lately. Perhaps it's a message that I really do need to work on my patience. In some ways I'm very laid back and relaxed and it takes a lot to make me mad. But then there is just that one time out of thirty when I just lose my patience.

Loss of control is not comfortable and it's certainly not a desirable quality. It's embarassing to have a mini temper tantrum in front of a class full of teens. And it was super embarassing admitting that to all of you. I guess it makes me human and admitting that it's something I want to work on means I'm trying to improve myself.

My ex has the kids tonight and tomorrow night because he's going out of town for the weekend so Sis and I decided to go out for a girls afternoon. We went out for a few drinks. My parents met us there. I must be finally giving out that "single vibe" because three decent looking guys hit on me. Now you all must realize that since I have been in a relationship since I was fourteen, this is all very new for me. It's exciting and it feels good to have people look at me like I'm beautiful and talk to me like they're interested.

But at the end of the night (we were home by 7:30 lol)it has left me feeling empty. I know that in spirit "I am NOT alone" but physically, I miss having someone next to me. I miss touch; I miss kissing; I miss intertwining feet; I miss the warmth of another body in bed.