If it hadn't rained so much the week before. If the wind had been coming from the south instead of east... the grass would have burned towards my house... burning my back pasture, not a problem, but could it have reached my house? Even if it didn't, the smoke blowing towards my house... we would have had to leave. Smoke damage to the house. Smoke damaged outdoor animals... :(

I watched the fire from my house. I have first aid. Why didn't I go try to help???

I took short 1 minute videos of the fire. Why didn't I take longer video? Longer video may have helped the investigation better. Maybe if I grabbed my camera sooner?

I feel bad that I even took video/pictures. But I didn't give them to any news - only to RCMP and showed some people I know.

I feel bad that I didn't know them better. I feel bad that I discouraged their kids from coming over here - they came over once but my fussy annoying DD "didn't have fun" with them (despite complaining constantly that she wants to play with friends). :P

The reaction of other people in my life - my mom would barely talk to me when I called her, people at work weren't much interested in talking (except for bad things about the family), I want to hear back from he RCMP about my video, did it help? DH has no idea how much it affects me, haven't had time or the chance to really talk to NDN.... I did tell her to give the family the message not to worry about their library books - they are all cleared off their accounts and they owe nothing. :(