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my concerns and worries about the upcoming operation which I would like
to get into a little bit now.
I
know this operation is serious and that there can be various outcomes
but I am concentrating on the odds that it will go without any hitches.
The results can be either of the following:
1)
I go in, have the operation and then go through the rehabilitation
period and get back to good form physically--of course there will be that pain but that, too, will pass, and I hope, quickly!!! :O) I do have a low threshold for pain. There is a 95% chance that is what will happen.
Taking into concern is the other 5%!!
2)
I could die on the table and there is no one I can talk to who had that
happen. (That's a joke, folks!!) I am all prepared if that is the case.
All the legal papers are in order, my heirs know what to do (ummm--I wonder who will fight over the ACL poster! LOL)
3)
I could have a stroke while being operated on and that is my biggest
fear. No way do I want to continue living if I have to be dependant to
do every day things on other people. I have put into motion what should
be done in that case.
4)
There is also a big possibility that I can get an infection in the ICU
ward after I am placed there which could lead to complications. I
really have no control over that and, hopefully, the only result would
be a longer rehabilitation time. It is frighting when you read all the
statistics about, "...the operation was a success but the patient
died." and that generally happens in the ICU!!
If
number 2 happens I will be going with the knowledge that I have had a
very interesting life, have overcome several adversaries that others
haven't, that I have experienced loving someone and being loved in
return, both unconditionally, have traveled, made friends, been
befriended, helped others and certainly have enjoyed to the utmost my
last 10 years as a retired senior citizen.
I have not accomplished/done everything I wanted to do in life but I am aware that I wouldn't even if I had 20 more years.
My attitude is that I will come through this with, maybe, a little (LOL)
discomfort but I will come through only to then have to face whether I
want to go through the operations on my legs or just live with the pain
that walking gives me--and, of course, I have the excitement (and
motivation) to go and see a few performances of the touring company of
"A Chorus Line"--that, for me, is a powerful motivation!!!
So,
yes, I have concerns and worries but they are not going to rule my
thoughts or change my happy, positive thoughts and the thrill of being
alive!!!
Like Bugg said..we will not entertain any other thought then you will come through this with flying colors