It's 11:30 on a work night and I'm awake...
Too much on my mind

My baby turns 9 tomorrow. He'll wake up in the house he's lived in since he was born and I won't be there with him to hug him, kiss him or wish him a happy birthday.

School is really wearing me out and draining me again. I'm feeling so ineffective. I have come up with a new plan (again) that I'll try next week in hopes of roping them back in for a little bit! As much as I want Summer (and am excited more than scared about my big career decision) it's not close enough to the end of the year for these kids to just turn off their brains! I've got a lot of material left to present. Hopefully after next week, our Spring Break will help a little bit to refresh both the students and I.

"Gotta Get Through This"

I was offered a job (at least for the Summer) tonight. It is exactly what I prayed for! My sister's boss wants me to not just work for her (as I have in the past), but she actually wants to train me to be there alone and do ALL the duties so that her and Rhonda could go to dog shows and leave ME in charge! This is really exciting for me! I said that I wished I could work with dogs or babies and I have envied my sister's job for a long time. I'll also be able to eventually house and kennel sit for her boss while they're all gone and she pays VERY well for this service!I'm so thankful and excited about this.

It's been a month that I've been using the wii fit and walking outside at least a couple of times a week. I've also been eating healthier, cutting portions, drinking more water and hot tea with less soda. G has been doing it too! Gotta love men! We eat the same meals (him bigger portions), we exercise almost the same and he loses TEN while I've lost 2.5!!! I'm proud and happy for him though really. I say this in jest and I'm proud of myself for what I have accomplished and I'm not giving up!

New mantra inspired by my therapist "I love me and accept me the way I am."