I have so much to say and so many things on my mind. And I of course want to share them with you but have no idea where to begin! So I'll start with this~

I have been blessed and am very thankful for:

1. I have grown so much closer to G (Not ME, Gee but G as in a.k.a."my man") this weekend. Now if I haven't totally confused you, we'll move on to two.

2. I met G's kids and they like me a lot.

3. I like them a lot.

4. I'm beginning to see a future for myself again and it's a very happy one, full of love and goodness.

5. I met G's mom and one sis and they like me. His mom gave me a hug before I left. It was very nice to see the great relationship he has with his Mom. She is so likable and in her home, I felt at ease from the first moment I stepped in the home where G grew up. We sat and drank hot tea, laughed and watched parts of a hockey game with her until after 10:30. I wasn't a bit nervous. Everything feels so natural (This technically could have been item six of blessings and things I'm thankful for).

6. He met both of my kids tonight and they liked him a lot. They were very receptive and open and laughed while telling him jokes and chatting about all sorts of things they have in common with both my G and his kids.

7. I got lots of my outdoor repairs done today. My brother in law and his friend seal coated and painted my roof. A young kid out back mowed my lawn because I don't have a mower. I painted the trim on the shed and the lattice work on the back porch.

8. Tomorrow we're cooking out at my sister's in the p.m. and G is going to get to meet my parents!

9. Monday (tomorrow) will be day 4 in a row that I've seen G! This is especially awesome after our usual pattern of only being able to see each other on Saturdays!

10. My sis has one of the baby rotties at her house for a while and she is sooo sweet. It's a real blessing to hold her and to have been able to see her grow from something smaller than the palm of my hand into such a big, beautiful dog.

11. I think that my ex and I are doing a really great job at making this one of the most civilized separations ever and maintaining a friendship throughout it.

Now that I've written all I'm thankful for, I must say that my worries seem less powerful.

Concerns and worries of the weekend:

1. My ex is really panicking now that I'm happy and involved in a relationship rather than just a casual, dating-friendship. I pray that once again he'll find peace like he seemed to have found before I found G. He wants me to be happy and I know that this is hard. I pray that he will take time to heal rather than just mask what he's feeling. I pray that this doesn't cause a downward spiral for him that will end up negatively affecting the kids and I, impeding all of us from moving on in a healthy direction.

2. Am I rushing this relationship? It doesn't feel rushed. Nothing has ever felt so right, but yet I'm scared. I know that if I were on the outside looking in, I'd think I was. But from the inside, I just want to shout "You deserve this too!" to all those who doubt our strong, quick connection that we feel. I pray that if I follow my heart and follow my gut that I won't be steered wrong.


Wow! 12 blessings and 2 concerns!
There is that number 12 again...A Perfect Dozen!

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