I always thought I'd be one of those people who'd live life with no regrets. Yes of course, because every life experience gives us a chance to grow and become someone new but No that wasn't the reason I was confident that I could.

Live Life With No Regrets

It was because I was one of those ridiculously "good girls" who completely lived to make others happy and emulate exactly what I thought I should be (according to what I learned was NORMAL).

But things changed...right around the time I turned 30.
I could guess, speculate and list the many things that happened in my life around that time. I could place blame...and sometimes I do. But I really don't know what "happened". I suppose it's a combination of all those "things that happened" along with the decisions I made along the way.

Who cares, right? It's too late, right?
I know...we can't turn back time; hindsight's 20/20; we must move forward (and all that jazz)!

But I can't get it out of my head, or not on a permanent enough basis to go on with my life while telling myself I'll be happier and stronger in the long run. Everything is a constant reminder and I'm not talking about the obvious reminders of my two children. I'm talking about 22 years of memories in the same small town where I still live.

Obviously I'm talking about my marriage, relationship, divorce and life from this point on.

But I could have written almost the same thing about the Ghosts of my Job Past. Same small town, same constant reminders, same unsure and unsettled feeling...