Hi to any of you out there who remember who I am and Nice to meet you to anyone who may happen upon this post knowing nothing about me!

I have no idea what I'm going to write, but I know there is an awful lot going on in my mind and it's not going anywhere on it's own. When I used to blog on a fanatically regular basis, I may not have solved anything this way...but I did have support and a place to pound out my feelings when pounding my head on the wall isn't effective!

I know this is no surprise to anyone but some days are easier than others. And sometimes the days that aren't easy tend to come in streaks.

Sometimes I know I'm making progress, personal strides. But I'm rarely happy with this and tend to over focus on the places where I fall short. And even if I have been doing alright in this area, one disappointing incident and I'm only able to see what I used to be and wanted to be...and compare it to what I am now.

A disappointment.

Even if it's meant to be; even if I thought I was doing the right thing; even if I believed I was doing the best I could...

I've disappointed many people, most of all me.