I had that with just about every ovulation and the timing of what you are describing may suggest that you may be experiencing the same thing. I don't even have the "monthlies" anymore, if you know what I mean, but I still have some symptoms at or around what would be my "normal days". It wouldn't hurt to have yourself checked, though, to make sure it is just YOUR normal "girlie thing".
Woo Hooooooooooooooooo! That's the ticket!
You always state that you find me so positive, strong, and helpful...and that I appear to be able to cope with things effectively. But, I had a bad day yesterday...a struggle with self-worth, self-confidence, and my actual abilities. Days and times like this are real, that's why we all feel worse or weaker or whatever more at times than other times...and that's why we all need a break, to vent, to evaluate, to allow the feelings to work through them, etc. once in awhile. It's taking a strength for you to make a hard decision about how to best deal with "ex", to meet the challenges with your children and employment. You've got the strength, girl! But, it's hard, it's scary, it's worrisome, and it isn't pleasant. But, down deep inside, you know you want to get through this and make everything be the best it can be, so try not to let yourself overly stress about these things because it isn't going to make anything easier or better for anybody...and it really won't change anything that has to be done, anyway. See if you can at least try to find that inner strength that you DO have and just go forward with it. The results will present themselves further down the line, so it's not where "things" as they are today will be the situation/story tomorrow. (This is the transition period, not necessarily the result, unless you let everything get "stuck".) But, it's ok to take a break once inawhile, so don't forget to stop for a breather and/or vent when you need to do so. THAT is healthy and it will help you.
Well, you knew there would be bumps because you know life always has bumps. Riding them out, meeting them head-on, getting over them, and moving on is what we all need to do with every bump that comes along, and you have already learned a considerably lot about being able to do that. So, have some faith in yourself and you will come through.
Believe it or not, he's doing you a favor. He may be making it more difficult to deal with him, but he's making it easier for you to continue on your current track. He is desperate, which is so often the case when somebody feels they're losing something, which I know you understand so you MIGHT even sympathize with somewhat...but, really, you should see that it is only that and nothing more. Because, if the two of you were still together and none of this was happening, things would be exactly the way they were...and there was something definitely wrong there. You stay strong and don't worry about taking care of yourself before worrying about him or his feelings. It's a little too late for him to expect anything different from you.
I understand why some people may not have an interest, maybe not even like theater, the Tony Awards Show, or any other number of things (like you don't particularly like sports or horror films), but to hate the Tony's is going a bit overboard. I happen to enjoy them, regardless of what negative opinions are out there or what the ratings are. So what if I'm in an exclusive bunch? I happen to think that I am quite unique, anyway!
I guess I just might decide to miss this movie.
Oh, Martin, I was so saddened when I read the news about Butch in your post. I know he had a special place in your heart because he was your first but, Martin, thanks to your love and care, he led a great life. I can picture him frolicking with the other birds over the Rainbow Bridge, ca'nt you?
I had a feeling it was only a matter of time...I've seen it happen on just about every site I use. Hopefully, it will be adequately controlled here and this will not fester into a major situation.
I had a comment all ready for this post, but I saw the show before I got here to comment. So, now, I have a different "twist" to my thinking because I not only know who was favored, but how it all turned out. I was very pleased with the results.
This is a tremendously wonderful post! It allows us to appreciate your love for the theater and the Tony Awards and to understand why. It puts a lot of the emotions into perspective and it registers a comprehension by including names of shows and examples of events that we can relate to. I happen to love the theater, too, very deeply, although for many different reasons. But, because of this, I can and do "get" why your fondness goes deeper than just being an avid fan.
My mother has shown signs of quicker, more improved reflexes and reaction time since she's been playing timed video games. My father, who supposedly has no use for computers in any way, has become less of an afternoon-napping-in-his-chair-in-front-of-the-tv and a sitting-in-his-chair-eating-junk-food-while-watching-tv person since he's been sitting on the foot of the bed helping Mom with the games. The senior center there, which offers computer classes, includes sessions exclusively on video gameplay. Not only do they see "students" having fun, but they also use hand/eye coordination, reflex, memory, and other skills that seem to be helpful.
The money from those checks will mostly go for gasoline, for catching up or getting ahead on utility bills, or maybe for items that people wish to have (but are manufactured by or sold by non-American businesses), so the "boost" to the economy is going where?
How wonderful it was to read all about this, Martin! Great post!
It's great to have such organizations around to give support and attention to so many who need it, will benefit from it, and who will enjoy it.
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