I talked quite a bit about what is happening at work with another woman who has been there for the same amount of time that I have. She's 65 and is cutting her hours from full time to 14 hours/week starting next week. She agrees about the game playing, and agrees about who is running the game and spreading false rumours. She also seemed to agree about my decision to ignore the note from Ms. Game Player. Ms. Game Player has insinuated herself in with the bosses. She doesn`t smoke, but goes out on smoke breaks with them and apparently assistant boss now considers her a friend. It looks like Big Boss also is on personal terms with her. Yikes. :( Anyway, at this point, we (the non-game playing employees) have decided to be very careful about what we say around her, to not believe what she says, and to stay out of the whole mess. A consultant is going to start working 3 days a week next week, and she is very good, very unemotional and stable, so hopefully that will also help.

After dealing with all that, DH decides to play a nasty game on me. I`m not going into details, but he laid a trap for me, one that he knows that I will fail because he knows perfectly well that I`m not `like that.` So now he`s pissed at me (nothing new - he has expectations of me that I cannot possibly meet.) I daydream about divorce all the time now.

And the kids. Stress factor 3. We planned early in the week to go to movie dome today. but this morning: Oh no, I hate movie dome I want to go to a different theatre, the one that costs $50 instead of movie dome which costs $20. Whah whah.

Stress factor 4 - other stuff. A pony I should be training more. A garden that needs more attention. A project that is so close to done, but I can`t seem to get out to finish it. I`m running a 11.2k race for the library on the 18th, I need to train. I need to dig some drainage trenches, and use the dirt to raise up a raspberry patch that was killed by standing water this spring. I need to attention my horse! I need to house clean and declutter! The basement is a horrid mess, almost bad enough for one of those hoarding shows! I need to get it organized and start selling & donating & consigning. I have years old sewing projects not completed. :(

I`ve dropped a lot of stuff. I don`t start sewing projects unless they are critical (like pajamas for DD). I dropped all other hobbies. I wanted to enter stuff in the country fair, but think I`ll have to stick with photography only - it`s the easiest to get ready. The house is dirty. I make simple dinners. I don`t blog much. :(

Stress, stress, stress.