It's not with good news that I return. I'm fighting depression so bad that I have to blog to try to come to terms with it all.
You know I had my Jen's 2 little ones and my Ra of sunshine, well she begged me to let her take the kids to the place she has been living for Thanksgiving, I finally relented, I haven't seen the kids since. I haven't had any contact with any of them either. I'm freaking out. How long has Ra been here? Six years?
I miss them all so much. I am not eating or sleeping, but I'm still working and I think my sanity will give way before my health. My hubby is trying to shock the hell out of me by bringing home TV dinners tonight. I got the message. I have to pull myself out of this crap. But how? I'm so worried, I have everyone looking for them and I want to kill something.
This too shall pass. But I'm so sad. I feel like the center of my universe has fallen out of my world. It's like a death of a very close family member.