23 September 2009

WARNING: Strong language in effect!!

I’m not really sure just why I’m so damn mad today. I really think I’m just mad at the world and I feel as though I’ve been shit on.

I wish I had never been laid off. By now I would have had all the credit cards paid off, maybe had M’s truck paid for, and have some money in the bank. As it is I get phone calls every day from someone wanting money and my credit is completely ruined.

I’m pissed at the world in general. Why the hell should I be happy when the shit is hitting the fan and I’m fighting for my life in so many aspects of this life? My car is shit. My bike is OK, but it will need maintenance soon, which I don’t think I can afford. I can’t get my eyes checked and get new contacts anymore because I can’t afford the visit to the doctor’s, or even afford the contacts.

I’m not doing bad in school, but I’m fighting all the time to keep my head above water and ahead of the schedule… As it is I should be doing a paper that’s due tomorrow, but I’m here bitching.

Well, fuck it. I’ll just have to pucker the ass cheeks and hold on for all I can.

I’m Alive… So Far…