23 June 2009

Just some side notes about my life in general.

I got the email yesterday that the VA had given hiring preference to a current VA employee and that they were given the job. So I never got the phone call, or interview. I think they messed up, and missed out on a great employee. So I keep looking into getting on at the VA and now I’m looking all over the place.

I have gotten everything just about lined up to start back at school in August. But I need to know when I’ll be working (or if) so I can schedule the classes. I guess I can always hold out on a job as long as I have unemployment. But I really want to get back to work. It’s killing me to barely make the payments we need to pay. If there is an emergency, we’ll be screwed. A car breaks down, we’re screwed. Well, you get the idea.

I just miss having a schedule. I can plan things with a schedule. Right now things just happen. Willy-nilly. No real plan to get things done. I keep thinking that, “Oh, I can do that later,” because I don’t have anything to do “later”.

I miss having the savings account with money in it. I miss being able to just go out and buy that new belt for the lawn tractor and not have to check the bank account to see what bill I’ll need to skip this month to be able to mow the damn lawn.

 I suppose I’m beginning to get down on myself. I was so damn confident I’d get the job at the VA. I have never really had to struggle to get a job before. I’ve always had job offers left and right before. But now I’m struggling to find a job that pays without having to have a degree.

My leg is kinda bad from the spider bite but I don’t want to go to the doctors because even though we have insurance, it doesn’t pay for all of the bill.

Well, I’m gonna quit my bitchin’ and get back on-line looking for a job.

I’m Alive… So Far…