I'm not sure why I haven't been posting the past couple of days. It certainly isn't for lack of things to write about! There has been lots going on here in Janet Land... everything from Spring *finally* arriving to Rock leaving for the weekend and some ensuing anger on my part and divine communications with my angels and guides to Rock and I coming full circle *again* with the issues surrounding us and our marriage and our relationship as a whole.

Add into that a rather uncomfortable conversation with my mother, a new friend at work, some major shifts with the American Boy and my being sick and you've got yourself a fucking novel!

And yet, even if with all of the catching up to do and all of the updates I know that I need to share, I still don't fell like posting anything.

Not because I don't want to share and certainly not because it wouldn't be incredibly helpful for me to share...

I'm just going through this period of quiet reflection inward. I really feel that right now I need to turn inwards a bit and take stock before I can surface again and let it all hang out.

I'm not sure, at all, where I'm going any more. The destination AND the trip itself change from day to day, minute to minute. *I* seem to change from day to day and from minute to minute. And every day, things seem to scatter and jump like fall leaves from the giving tree, settling down in a new pattern on the ground each and every time I turn around.

So, I'm taking a break. From a lot of things. To stop smoke from coming out of my ears! Ha! I'll still be hovering around MyBloggers, reading all of you wonderful people and posting my ever witty comments (ha) and I'm sure it won't be long before inspiration strikes and I'm back to pestering all of you with my daily babbling.

For right now, though, I'm just turning inward...trying to make sense of it all...and when I do, all of you will be the first to know.

Okay?