I'm not really here. And I don't know what to say or where to begin and time is, as usual, not on my side.

So here is the jist of it, I guess.

I don't have Internet anymore. I only use my Mom and Dad's once in a blue moon and even then, not for very long and really only to check facebook.

I miss blogging. Especially lately.

My little boy is not okay. What we thought was autism is not or maybe is and there is no comfort in hearing anyone in the medical field tell you, "we've never seen anyone like him." Believe me.

My girls are fantastic.

There were no other babies and now, never will be. I'm not getting into it.

I no longer have a sister. But she's no dead. I'm not getting into that, either.

I still have an American Boy but...you guessed it...I'm not getting into it.

It's been a long, hard year.

But, as always...

Heart in hand, facing forward.