since I have had a cigarette!!!
August 20, 2008 with glasses

When I was 31 it was confirmed that I was an addictive personality though I
had known it for years--moderation, whether regarding sex, food, smoking, booze,
etc., didn't exist in my life.
At 16 I landed in the hospital after over dosing on diet pills--I had lost 7
pounds taking a pill a day so I figured I would lose 14 pounds if I took 2 a
day--didn't work so I accelerated the amount of pills I took--was not a good
time in my life--ever since then I have been deathly afraid of drugs and the
fear of over dosing so instead I over dosed on food, booze and sex, not
necessarily in that order.
In any case between the operation and the refraining from smoking I became a
bundle of nerves and anxiety so I asked the doc for a mild tranquillizer--he
prescribed 0.25 mg of Xanax and I have been taking one every evening just
before going to sleep--now I am sure it is more psychological than physical but
I felt I was becoming addicted to Xanax so I decided to stop taking it. I could
not fall asleep Monday evening and finally at 7 AM Tuesday I gave in and took a
Xanax--last night I took 1/2 a pill and once again couldn't get to sleep and I
felt all my nerve endings were screaming so I gave in and took a pill--almost
immediately started nodding off!!!
Now I now Xanax is not a sleeping pill and I really don't want to become
dependant on it--give up smoking for pills??NO!!--so next time I go to see my
primary I will ask him for a mild, a very mild, sleeping pill and see if I can
stop the Xananx. Right now I am only taking one of the latter and that will be
late in the evening--I need my sleep to alleviate the anxiety of not smoking,
low energy and recovery.
Anybody know some natural herb that will help you go to sleep??
August 20, 2008 without glasses--looking good for a 72 year old man with a
pig's valve in his Kosher body!!! LOL
