January 5, 2012

Allen
came back on Sunday so I no longer have a car and am once again a
prisoner at/of Gateway but I would rather have my friend back, and here,
than a car--though I will put the latter, with the insurance paid for a
year, on my birthday wish list!!

On
January 21, 1981 I had my last taste of alcohol--a lot led up to it,
including blackouts, but something happened that evening/morning, 20-21 , that made me say, "No more." After
33 years of drinking, trying to act sophisticated, older, to be part of
the 'in' crowd, going to bars to cruise--we didn't have the Internet
for 'dating' back then in the Ice Age--getting into impossible
situations, traveling to South America, spending thousands of dollars on
parties and not remembering a thing, losing control, one too many
'incidents' I gave the booze up and have not had a taste of it since
then. I won't order Coq Au Vin or any dish made with wine--yes, I know
it 'evaporates' during cooking but I also know how I think. To a
certain degree I still miss it--at a 'better' restaurant I still want to
order that drink before dinner--Johnny Walker Black on the rocks unless
you are paying then it will be aHaigand Haig Pinch!! LOL Instead I'll
order a cup of coffee and I forget all about the alcohol.

Funny,
or is it?, but I hate being around drinkers! They all sound so stupid
and repeat everything 10 times, besides not being a drinker I am
automatically the 'designated' driver! Though I stopped smoking on July
21, 2008 (something about that number 21 LOL) being around smokers
doesn't bother me at all, including the smell of smoke and this from a 3
pack a day smoker!

It
was 8, I think--I am sure one of my 'followers' will correct me if I am
wrong--years ago I started blogging and you can blame that on Chuck
because a few years before that he sent me his old computer to start
getting into the modern world and now I am all over the place, posting
blogs at 9 different sites, writing reviews for corinescorner,
participating in sparkspeople.com, checking in every day, and commenting
on, talkinbroadway, gay travelers network, etc.

More
than once I have been accused of being passive/aggresive on blogs and
just a brief explanation--what good does it do, what does it accomplish
to directly face/challange a person on  a blog? They aren't going to
change, they will still lie, threaten, post private messages, put down
gays and/or anyone who is different than they are or think different.
Instead of saying "You are an idiot," I would rather say 'they are an
idiot" and if the shoe fits wear it, if not that would end someone
wanting to start, continue, a blog war which I don't think anyone comes
here to get involved in. I do try (try means failure) to stay out of
blogs dealing with religion and/or politics and in most cases I will not
respond to anti-gay remarks, comments, blogs but I will, once in
awhile, answer and let it go on when I would be better off ignoring
ridiculous remarks.

I
have had 5 'blog wars', all on one blogging web site, with
individuals--2 are gone, one has mainly stopped blogging and one ignores
me as I ignore them (there you go again Martin--being
passive/aggressive LOL) but the 5th can't stay away from me--always
reading me!  :O)

I
did want to get into trusting people and a fairly negative time I had
recently but as it is this blog is already too long--I will be back!

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"The universe is transformation.

Our life is what our thoughts make it."

Marcus Aurelius  121-180 AD  Roman Emperor and Philosopher

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