I am at a loss of words and don't have much to say. I am numb. My kids dad called my parents and told them he had taken pictures of me doing something I shouldn't be doing. Anyone that knows my story form Blogster might know what I am talking about. He also told my parents about D'man's blog and now I am scared. They read everything I wrote and he wrote over at blogster. I know he is going to try to use this proof as leverage not to have to pay alimony or to take the kids away. I can't lose my babies. Why didn't I think of the ramifications of what I was doing before? Oregon is a no fault state but I don't know if the pictures will come into play or not. I am so sick. My arms are like dead weight, my heart won't quit beating, it gets faster and faster and my head won't quit spinning. What did I do? I really blew it this time and I don't know what to do. I guess I will call my attorney tomorrow and see if he can't get me in any sooner. I am a nervous wreck. My parent's are so angry because I lied to them. I am not proud of my choices and yet I continue to make them. What is wrong with me? I don't know! I just don't know anything anymore. Somebody help me! So now you all know why my blogster account is private. Ask to be my friend if you want to. I just can't run the risk of the kid's dad getting anymore leverage than he already has.