My blogging days have come to an end. I can't figure out how to make this private and this is no longer a place of release for me. My husband is still reading my blogs and now assuming things that I don't have the emotional strength to deal with. The end of my marriage and my life long dream is difficult enough to deal with. I can't even begin to express the grief I feel on a daily basis. The failure, the regrets, the heart ache is so intense. You have all been very supportive to me and I will miss you all very much. However, I can't put myself in the position to deal with the ramifications of my need to express my feelings. I really am trying to find strength and self esteem and can't do that with the accusations and pain that it is causing my husband. I need him to be happy more than I need to blog. I will find other ways to express myself and I will be fine. I will be checking in to keep up on all of your lives. Best of wishes to everyone and know that you can always email me. I will be checking as often as possible. Good Bye and again thank you for helping me through such a difficult time!