Normally rainy days bring me down emotionally and I just feel tired and blah all day long. Thankfully I can say that today was a rare day in the sense that the above isn't true.

I think the main factor was that I actually slept all night long last night without interruption of unexplained waking or nightmares. I actually felt refreshed and ready for the day even though I had so much to do for a Monday morning. And even more miraculous, this energy carried through the entire day. I worked through my lunch, barely even tempted to lay down like I sometimes do. After class: I helped students, went to the bank, stopped to the gas station, the market and came home and continued to move. Before I knew it, the time had come to start the Mom taxi to bowling pick up. Then a quick dinner before the taxi started again with a trip to dance school.

The ex ended up taking the kids tonight. They wanted to and he wanted them to. When we are getting along, everything is great. We both try to do what makes the kids happy. But just like when together, if our communication breaks down and we fight...everything is a mess. It's ironic how we still have to fix one of the biggest marital problems we had even through our separation.

Although I know he desires a divorce, I still can't bring myself to accept or think about that. I can't explain. It's fear I suppose. I was talking to a mom of one of my son's friends at bowling and she asked him to spend the night on Saturday. Without a second blink or thought, I said that my daughter and I would be away and I was sure my HUSBAND wouldn't mind. I could have said their father if I just wanted to avoid the subject. Was it habit or more that made me say that? Perhaps a bit of each.

So I got my school work done and am free to relax a while before bed. It's nice and early and I'm rather anxiety free at the moment. (Thank you God!)