I don't know where this picture was taken, but this is what New Years looks like in Tampa too. The boats closest to the fireworks are usually Coast Guard, Coast Guard Auxiliary and law enforcement. Our job is to keep recreational boaters at a safe distance. I have been on more than one safety patrol for New Years fireworks in Tampa and it occured to me far too late that this might be a fun way to celebrate New Year's Eve this year too. You cannot imagine what it is like to be almost directly under the fireworks and hear the boom echoing off the water. You see the spectacular fireworks and the booms vibrate throughout your body. It is exhilirating!

Ok, I got sidetracked by my image. What I wanted to say is that insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different outcome. I got rid of some of the insanity in my life when I severed ties to my two toxic sisters. I kept hoping that their attitudes towards me would change. If I tried hard enough, was understanding enough, patient enough.... that whole codependent theme. (Yup, that's me!)

I meant what I said about changing my attitude towards myself. I have to start by being kinder to myself. I deserve love and respect. I deserve success in life. I can motivate and validate others. I will begin using those same methods to motivate myself. If insanity is... then it is insane to continue to accept so little for myself.

I wish all of you a very happy new year and all of the love and success that you deserve! I don't know how I would have made it these past years without your encouragement and understanding.