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I arrived on Saturday evening and he already had the music playing, cocktails made, and candles lit. We chatted in the kitchen over the fresh strawberry cocktails that he had blended up commenting that he didn't know how to make Lemon Drop Martinis which is one of my favorites and had consumed a lot of the first night we hooked up back in November.
With my head light from the vodka we started making out in the kitchen. Our clothes started to disappear and I wrapped my leg around his. He lifted me up onto the counter and then asked if I'd like to go someplace more comfortable. He carried me to the bedroom with my legs wrapped around his chest, kissing the whole time.
I told him that I was impressed that he carried me and he told me that I'm light.
Wait a minute, I'm light? _ I'm light! _ Wow, this is a whole new concept for me. And this is the reason I am blogging about this intimate moment. I still struggle with my current body image. It doesn't help that my body is constantly changing because of my sheer will power to continue to count calories and exercise - sometimes twice a day. I can't grasp what I truly look like and at 140 pounds that I'm now considered light.
- - - to catch some of you up at the end of April 2007 I stood on the scale at 190 pounds and decided that I needed desperately to make a change. Before developing hypothyroidism I'd always maintained my weight around 155 through most of my 20s. I was diagnosed at 29 and had already gained 20 pounds and have since struggled with my weight these past six years. I have never been as serious about being healthy as I am now - - -
And being lighter has brought me a lot of confidence. I still don't know exactly what I want out of my fling with TBD but we do have more than a physical connection and he always knows how to make me feel even more beautiful and sexy.
I also get some of the best hickeys. I had packed my gym bag before getting these lovely bite marks and got to sport them in spin class because of my tank top. In the mirrored reflection I did see some girls behind me giggle about them. Too funny! And HW and I joked about the bite marks after class because she had thought there was lip stick on my back. Needless to say, it's been a great weekend!
I know what you mean about body image...your mind has to catch up to your body...you're getting there...
