Though my heart isn't in it, I am going to try to do this post because I feel that writing about some of these issues may help.
For starters, Jim, my brother, has moved to north of Sand Springs to live with his son.  He has decided not to undergo treatment, as he said from the beginning that he might choose to do.  I am still trying to get him to take at least some chemo to help with the pain.  He says he might when he goes on Medicare Nov. 1.
DD1  is unbelievably homesick for Grandson, as I knew she would be.  The whole situation is exacerbated by her current financial woes.  She and her boyfriend are still on...that is one good thing.
I have decided to move back to Texas.  I have to get away from all this stress.   Since I had cancer, I just don't handle stress nearly as well as I did before....or maybe it's just my age.  I get physically ill myself when I have my kids' problems, my brother's illness and my worries about Mother's failing health all collapsing on me at one time.

Holly has found me a nice senior citizen apartment not far from where she lives that is in my price range. I'm on hold right now to see if I can get in. I'm trying to divest myself of some income so that I will be within their guidelines. They have given me permission to sell the assets, which I am trying to do right now. If I am successful, I will probably try to move around Oct. 1.
I can hop a plane and be back here in an hour any time I need to be, so I think for my own sanity I have to do this.  I can't really solve anyone's problems; but if I can stay strong mentally, I can be a better support system for them. 
Do you think I am doing the right thing?  I certainly don't know.  I have so much guilt going on inside me right now that one day I'm convinced it's the right thing to do and the next I feel I should stay here.