Last night I got home and walked the boys, then started reading my BRAND NEW Farm Sanctuary book by Gene Baur, the FOUNDER of the Farm Sanctuary. GREAT book so far, highly recommended. :0)

Anywho, R comes home a little bit later and we are off to the gym. We found out yesterday that the person who we met earlier in the week had left the gym which would explain why she wasn't getting back to me. hehe. So we went, worked out, then joined. It took about an hour to join which seemed excessive to me (she was new), but we got through it, then went to Subway for dinner - by that time it was 8:30! Yikes!

At Subway we were behind "that guy" who was ordering like 12,000 subs, so I was looking around. I said "hey, they sell pizza here now. How cool!" R was kinda like oh. Then approximately one minute later he said "Oh look, they sell pizza here!" I just smacked him in the stomach and said "I JUST SAID THAT!" This made me REALLY mad. Why? Because the man CONSISTENTLY seems to ignore me. CONSISTENTLY. There are times when I say something to him, he nods or says oh, then two days later he says the same thing and thinks he's bringing out a new idea. I usually laugh it off, but last night it pissed me off.

As we were eating our subs at Subway he was trying to make small talk and I just nodded or shook my head. In my brain I was like what the F point is there in speaking to this man??? I know, irrational, but I was MAD. I hate feeling ignored.

We sat in silence in the car, then we got home. He walked the dogs, I got ready to snuggle in bed with my book, and that was it. This made me even more mad. I decided to send him a text, since he normally can READ what I say. I was like I CONSIDER THIS IS OUR FIRST FIGHT SINCE YOU OBVIOUSLY DON'T CARE THAT I AM PISSED OFF. He didn't write back. SERIOUSLY??? So I sat and festered. About a half hour later I was like your silence is making me even more angry. He wrote back that sometimes he is thinking about other things and doesn't hear me, and that it's not intentional. WOW! That gave me the warm and fuzzies. I told him he needed to work on his "making me feel" better skills... he said he would.

This morning he was up and about and was like "Do you still hate me?" I was like ya know, you never apologized or said what you were gonna do to fix it. Then I went to finish my hair and he took the boys out. On the way out of the house he was like I hope ya have a good day and I'm sorry. I just kinda looked at him and mumbled that I hoped he had a great day as well. Then he said "if it makes ya feel better my neck is still sore" (from the gym last night), so I said I was sorry about that and I got in my car.

WHY do boys need things spelled out for them??? Can't he TELL I am pissed and that it's because of HIS ACTIONS???? Why don't boys get it??? Had he said he was sorry and that he would try harder to listen all would have been well. WHY do I need to TELL him that??? Gawd.

And, if it's this bad now, what's it gonna be like in 10 years????

In other news, I burned another 200 calories last night on the bike and I feel GREAT! I woke up this morning and hit the treadmill and I just feel wonderful.

This morning I tried on an old bathing suit (size 8!) and it fit! It's certainly not the best fitting thing, but it fits and I think I can pull off wearing it tonight if we go to the pool as planned! :0)

HAPPY FRIDAY!