27 July 2009

About the Freak Out:

Ok. I think I’m better. It’ll just be a few days and then we’ll know what’s going on. We asked that M be added to the prayer list at our church, praying for a good result. We had a bunch of people come up and talk with us and give us support. I think that more than anything helped me to get over the heebie-geebies. One way or another we have a great support network to help us.

As a side note to this, M is more and more in favor of having a child soon. She’s feeling her age (35) and her mortality with this scare. She said if the results come back good she wants to start trying to get pregnant.

I don’t have a job. I’m beginning school and will be going to school for the next 4-5 years. Her response is that it will be at least 9 months before we would need to have a second income so she could take maternity leave. And if I only work part time and go to school I can take care of the child most of the time. ACK!

I have nothing against children. I just don’t think I’m the one to be raising any. People tell me that I’d make a great father, but I know what’s going on in my mind. I’d resent the child for taking away my freedom. No more jumping on the motorcycle and taking off for the afternoon or even the weekend. No more hooking up the boat and splitting on a moments notice. And the same would go for M and her motorcycle and going out with the girls for the evening.

I feel no desire to have a child. None. But if this is what M wants, we’ll talk about it and see where things lead us. She already knows I’m resistant to the whole idea. But, well, I guess we’ll have to see how it all comes out.

And before anyone says, “When it’s your own child, you’ll feel differently!” I’ve heard that before, and I’m very scared to think that it won’t be true for me. And I’ll hate the child, hate my wife for making me do it, and hate myself for letting it happen.

On The Job Front:

I got the email on the job as a Rehab Tech and they have filled it with someone else. That sucks.

I have been patiently waiting for a call on the Aircraft Refueler position I applied for but I haven’t heard from anyone yet. I think I’ll call the place and ask if there has been any movement on interviewing people.

Today is my day for looking at all the local papers on the internet and look for jobs and chasing information down about jobs and such. Every Monday I look through everything I can find and see what is going on. I usually end up applying for one or two jobs a week.

There are still a few jobs that I have applied for that I am waiting for responses, so I keep on hoping.

A Movie Review:

This past weekend M and I went out on the bikes and saw the latest Harry Potter movie. I do have to say if you haven’t read the books you would not understand the movie very well. The movie producers are relying on the fact that the movie goers will have the book in their mind when they watch the movie. So many things are hinted at from previous movies and there are some indirect references to things that never made it into the movies, but are expected to be understood if you’ve read the books. Also I have to say that with the time between movies, it would help A LOT if you watched the previous one or two movies again to get into the flow of the new movie.

I have to say that the HP actors have finally seemed to grow up, and now they are really acting. What I mean is in the previous movies they were adequate actors, but now they are really good. The pace of the movie is a bit slower than the last one and the pace of the dialog was slower and you didn’t have to strain to understand the words. That was my biggest gripe on all the other movies. The dialog was very rapid patter and it seemed to lose some of the emotion, not to mention meaning as the actors said their lines. This time it was slower, and seemed to convey more nuance and meaning.

I’m re-reading the “Half-Blood Prince” right now and realize just how much was lost in the making of the movie. Personally I recommend reading the books over the movies, but I have to say that the movies are a bit like watching the Cliff Notes of the book. But the movie does hit the highlights of the book and does it fairly well.

Well that’s it for now. I gotta get going on trying to find a job again!

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